I am My Favourite

ජීවිතේ සමහර වෙලාවට අපිට හිතෙනවා අපේ පෙනුමත් එක්ක මේ ලෝකෙට අපිව ගැලපෙන්නේ නෑ කියලා. සමහර වෙලාවට අපිට හිතෙනවා අපිට වඩා අනිත් හැම දෙනාම කොච්චර සතුටින්, කොච්චර සැහැල්ලුවෙන් ජීවත් වෙනවද කියලා. අපිව කොන් වෙලා, අපිව ගනන් ගන්න කව්රුත් නෑ කියන දේ හිතට ඇතුල් වුනාම අපිට ඒකෙන් මිදෙන්න සමහර වෙලාවට ටිකක් අමාරුයි. නමුත් මේ කිසි දෙයක් අපේ සාර්ථකත්වයට බලපාන්නේ නෑ. අපි ගැන අපිට විශ්වාස නම් අපේ ගමන පැහැදිලියි. ඉතින් මේ කතාව පුංචිම පුංචි කතාවක් එක්ක තේරුම් කරන්න ප්‍රබාශි සොයුරිය අපිට ලස්සන ආටිකල් එකක් දුන්නා. ඉංග්‍රීසි භාෂාවෙන් අද අපේ ආටිකල් එක දිගහැරෙනවා. මම මගේ කැමතිම කෙනා තමයි අද අපේ මාතෘකාව.. ඔබත් එකතු වෙන්න මේ සොඳුරු ආටිකල් එකත් එක්ක...

In one of the largest subcontinent in the world, also under very restricted and cultural values are highly concerned context I was brought up. I am Sarah Menon, who is the second child of a simple middle-class family consisting of graduated Papa works for a state bank while Mom is a proud housewife. I have a big brother who works for multinational IT firm and my younger sister who does fashion designing and clothing textile engineering course as her bachelors. I am, here the storyteller has done bachelors in Traditional dancing and linguistics. Keep in mind, all of the above is to paint my content I am going to be telling today. So its all starts with a dream I had, which was to become a volunteer and to become a diva when I was in childhood. 

I was a fan of lots of great dancers in the world. The morning I was Madhuri, daytime I was Aishwarya, and for nights I was the pop star Michael. Meanwhile I had a little pain about something which was really stressed me out. Because I was a girl who is more than 5’6 in height, I was a girl who was having quite darker complexion. Though I really loved the way I was, most of the times my friends, my cousins and sometimes my mother always highlighted the fact I am dark and too tall also to my skinny body structure. Though I wanted to dance in the school stage I was never allowed, because I was different from others.  I tried out lots of fairness creams, workouts including varieties of Pushups and Pullups to get rid of all of the complaints. I knew that I am not interested as my sister does, or smart as my brother is. So I was a totally introverted person and fully focused on my course which was a teaching thing. Once the degree got finished I started going for a differently able student’s high school to teach dancing and linguistics. That time my brother got married and my sister got a Fiancé. I was completely out of that mindset because I thoroughly believed I am born to be rejected. My mother searched for some people but they wanted an educated, well-paid job holding, fair and etc.. so before they visit our house I searched the relevant person from Facebook, Instagram or snappy chat and said NO! .  That was my strategy.  Because I really didn’t want to see rejections anymore.

A day of mid-September, I organized a function for students under cross-cultural dancing practices. What I had to do was welcome everyone who attended and overall look up into sessions. I kept doing my task well and the event also went as I planned. Once the reflection and networking session were happening after the event. A person who was comparatively taller and somewhat pleasant came towards me with a smile which was not fake at all. He greeted me and said Madam, I would love to fund a project like this, if you are concerning about another phase of this, it’s a great pleasure to cooperate with this kind of things. I was not that much interested in his idea because that was a very usual comment or request we get after lots of events and when we are really in a need for sponsorship they never offer. So with that experience I collected his business card and moved away. But after two or three days  I got a friend request from that same person and after scrolled through his profile I accepted the same. Months went, I started to help out my sister’s wedding and my parents were also bit worried about my attitude towards life and another thing.

When I was going to select Sarees and jewelry to sister’s wedding, I was truly annoyed by my aunties and my cousins. If you were a bit shorter, this costume would have been so good for you, no no don’t go for those it's too charm and all or else too dark……… However I managed to choose a one attire which was a burgundy color long skirt and was struggling to match a jacket for it.  Honestly I was clueless to decide what to do next. I stood in front of the mirror and was just looking at my choice and others. “Wear cream beige, it will look good on you !!!!” I heard a very familiar voice from my back. It was Ajay ………I was so excited and got surprised by this sudden meetup and reply. Ajay the person who offered a funding opportunity to our school. He was there to choose a Saree for his mother and had seen me also there. I was thanking him and helping him out also to buy his stuff. The day went with an invitation for coffee out as well. we started going out as friends initially and were so compatible with each other. As we all know when we become good friends we have no secrets. He had understood my insecurities with the time and my minor points, plus points as well. I realized him as a very passionate person only. One day I got pissed off with some proposal incident with my family members and truly was so disappointed with the life. I did not talk to anyone for a week and stopped going out. I did not answer any call from anyone and wanted to be alone for some time. Around 2.00 am in the midnight I got a message saying “ Darling Sarah, your eyes started to light up my life you may don’t know, your affection and company strengthen up my life you may don’t know, your smile is the prettiest thing I’ve seen. you may even don’t know that also. But I know you’re the best thing that I can ever afford for – love, Ajay”. I was completely and wholeheartedly fallen for those words. the long-awaited value I ever wished could gain in that second. That was the moment I realized we may not good for all. but to the correct one.

Sarah wedded to Ajay and had two kids later. She did her Masters with all of her husband’s support. Ajay does well in his company with the support of Sarah as well. They migrated to the USA after some time and started a foundation for acid-damaged girls in their home country. When I was searching for a music album, I saw this touching documentary from a  famous video sharing website. It may be fictional or factual but still it has thousands of learnings. More than we admire about ourselves we tend to complain about us. Someone can say, I am fat or fleshy. Aiyooo I am too dark, I have so many pimples. To be exact, this is not about girls, even guys feel insecure. We don’t have to get panic, that is so natural. When we are not confident enough or else do compare and contrast a lot about everything, we feel so. 

I remember when I was in grade 08,  I was damn overweight and I used to eat everything without a limit whenever it’s possible. Lots of neighbors were telling me, too fat, double chin and all these. I still remember what my father said, don’t worry! Duwa. You are not fat, you’re just fluffy. That was a great relief for me at that time. None of us born perfect, everyone is unique and they have carried the best things they deserve. When Mr. Amithabh Bachchan got rejected from his first screen test because of his height. If he gave up on his dream due to that. India may not have such an iconic actor. That is what we all should understand. You may not good for others now for some reason, but later on you will be the best for them. Like people may not love for a potato but they will love for chips. Simple as that. Everyone in this world has high and low notes in their lives therefore we may feel a worry or disappointment about anything we have.

But dude ! just think, if God really needed to create us as in same, the photocopy machine would not have been invented in this century but in Adam Eva era. The world needs a diversity that is how life gets excited and exists. If we all are common, life would have been boring. Just think about our friend circle, we have a so serious fellah, then a tube light one, damn funny one, sensitive one likewise. Among all of these how much of fun we are having!. Even for a beauty to get enlightened, it needs some ugliness around it. So to choose thin, you need fat as same as to find good you need bad. when we do lesser the sortings and comparing we can afford lots of remarks in our lives. Even if you get failed from one interview, you may get another good offer from a company, who knows! … like a coin has two sides, we also have luck and unluck, pass or fail. that is the flow of everyone's lives. Remember not only yours. When you feel low, keep some comfortable people to make you feel strong. it is quite important to belong to the circle where you are still valid without any concerns. Take your family whatever your situation they accept the way you are. It can be your fiance, fiancee or best friend.

Drive for your dreams. If you are passionate about the thing you do, you will follow your own way. That is the common secret of every successful person around us. In our Asian context we are growing up with lots of social pressure. We cannot complain or change it as we wish. But with the evolvement it may be changed. Be happy with the things you have and thrive for your further development as a small raindrop becomes a big river and get joined to the huge sea. Therefore be confident, smart and do everything in your own way. the people who you need to have in your life will be retained. And others will go. Always find your inner peace firstly and move. Simply be your favorite and be the person whom you wish to attract!

Prabhashi Satharasinghe

Second year

Faculty of Management and Finance

University of Colombo.

අපි මේ වගේ ආටිකල් එකකින් ආයෙමත් මුණගැහෙමු.. ඔබේ සරසවියේ හෝ ආයතනයේ ඕනෑම උත්සවයක්, අවස්ථාවක් ගැන ලියන්න අවශ්‍ය නම් අපිට කතා කරන්න ඔබට පුළුවන්.. පුංචි කොන්දේසි කීපයක් එක්ක තමයි අපිට ඒ දේ කරන්න වෙන්නේ.. කොහොම උනත් අපි කැමති තුම්මුල්ලෙන් එහා සමාජෙත් එක්ක ආදරයෙන් ගනුදෙනු කරන්න, මොකද මේක අපේ සරසවියට විතරක් කොටු වෙච්ච සීමාවක් ඇතුලේ ඉදන් කරන දෙයක් නෙමෙයි නිසා..

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